This song is my life’s story & here’s my story:
I’ve been married for 23 yrs & just like all marriages it was good at first but people change and he is not the man I married anymore. I feel like I’ve been through hell for the past 15 yrs. I just wanna be happy again I’ve tried to work it out & I’ve tried to get myself to a point where I can leave but nothing seems to work out for me. I am here for my daughter she is my world but I also know what I need to do. I don’t love him anymore I just want out but I feel he will never let me go. I’ve given everything to this man but it’s never good enough for him I have tried several times to leave myself but without income of my own it is very hard to do. When I try to talk to him he just says he doesn’t wanna hear it so what can I do? I just hope to find a job soon and get out of this situation because I need to desperately. I don’t want pity or advice I know what is best for me & my daughter I just wanted to share a part of me.
This song is my life’s story & here’s my story:
Maybe it is hard for you to understand but I do care
about you sincerely. I see so many girls liking you
for superficial things like your money, status, and
looks. I just hate to see you hurt by these girls.
Though that may seem silly to you it just means
that I care very much.
One of these days you may want something deeper.
For me love isn’t about the
superficiality Love has to be deeper for me.
Maybe someday you will understand that I
really do care. I know you value your freedom
and I understand that cause I do too.
Just realize I like you for so much more then
what’s on the surface your personality & sense
of humor are so unique & rare that I know
there will never be another for me. I know
you aren’t very interested in what
I say or do but I need to express my feelings
too. I respect your privacy I just wish you
would let me be your friend. Just know
if I didn’t care I wouldn’t be here for you.
I know we have different views on some things but
there is also many similarities between me &
you as well. I am not sure why I am even writing
my feelings down because I feel you won’t see
them anyway but I have to write my feelings down it
is the best way for me to express them. Maybe
someday you will read this and realize it is
about you because I haven’t been exactly shy about
trying to let you know how I feel. I wish you
nothing but love and if you find that special
girl she better treat you right because you
deserve the best love has to offer.
I am a Christian but I am also a true friend if you ask for my opinion I will give it to you, truth and all, I will not comfort you with a lie I cannot lie I am open & honest. I cherish my friends but I trust very few. If I sense something about someone I cannot trust or have a bad feeling about them I will not associate with them. I have a good sense of character but I haven’t trusted it in the past & that is why I am not open to many people. My experience is why I am reserved about getting to know someone. I have been hurt too much in the past. I will say if you like me fine but if not you don’t have to talk to me. I am cool with that to each their own Live and Let Live. The biggest stereotype about religious people is that we are judgmental but I will say if someone is a true Christian they will know the Bible says Judge Not Lest You Be Judged. I believe there is only one judge and that is God. I don’t care how you live your life or what choices you make I am here to be a friend if you need one I offer my advice but I don’t know everything and I don’t pretend to know everything. You can either take my advice or leave it. If You ask I will offer it. I am very compassionate & kind to those I know, I respect everyone even if I don’t get the same in return. Most people think they know me but I have very few close friends that know the real me. People will always judge others anyway, but I just want to say I have tried to fit in with many social groups but I am not the type to fit in I was born to stand out I have a strong personality and some take that as having an attitude or being heartless when that is not me at all. I am very passionate, determined & stubborn but I am also sincere, warm, kind and caring. Maybe if you would try to get to know me maybe you would see it too. I am me I can only be me whether you like me or not is for you decide but I can say once we are friends I am loyal, kind and caring & I will go out of my way to help you out. I feel at times very alone & misunderstood but I know I can only be who I was meant to be it is very hard for me to find a kindred spirit but the ones who fly solo often have the strongest wings & so I accept that with trials comes strength & everything happens for a reason but what is meant to be will be & I believe that with all my heart. I won’t beg anyone to be my friend & I have a hard time approaching new people I like intelligent conversation so if you want to talk to me engage me in a conversation I don’t chase after anyone I like people to come to me but sometimes my strong personality makes people feel I am unapproachable but I am not but that is one of the draw backs of having a strong presence so I accept that.
I’ve cared about very few men but when I care no matter what they do or say I still love them. I have cared about the wrong man many times but as a woman I know what I need and what I can give to the right man even if he doesn’t feel the same. Sometimes in life you learn to give space where space is needed because in the end whatever is meant to be will still find a way. My love like me is one of a kind but it is hard to even get me interested because I don’t get interested very often but I also know when to let go. Love can’t be forced or manipulated and I will never do that. I need to know that man cares or is interested and if he doesn’t show that I will not linger very long. In the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make…..
I have noticed a lot of fans get upset because a celebrity doesn’t try to get to know them or talk to them or tweet them back or what have you so I will say this: Every celebrity has a private life and personal friends, that part of their life should be kept private. When you’re a fan of someone…
I rarely share my deepest thoughts but when I do I have to write them down…..sometimes it seems no one understands me but writing helps me clarify and put my feelings out there that is why I write poetry….So this is my thoughts about a very special man maybe this will let him know how I feel and maybe by chance he will read it because it is all true every word….
I may not be a spirit but I am very spiritual
I may not be a manifestation but I can help you manifest your dreams.
More of Enrique on Dick Clark’s New Years Eve Special
My new New Years Resolution no more love relationships with men I’ve had it with them all….
I love how men like little girls then they wonder why they end up with a little bitch men are clueless when you want a REAL WOMAN let me know. You little girls can have them. Experience makes you a real mature woman nothing else.
Best Part of the show thank God for Enrique being there and Billy Joel
Wishing Everyone A Blessed New Year, may success, happiness and prosperity be yours. I know most people never keep their Resolutions but I only hope to be a better person next year then I was this year, wiser and happier. One sure thing you can always say about life It Goes On. I wish all my friends the happiness that you deserve in this life. Much Love to All. ♥ XOXOXO ♥